I am so exhausted. I could sleep for a year. I know that's partly emotional, partly depression, partly not eating. Going to sleep for a year will not make this go away. It'll still be here when I wake up. I know it.
I am behind on work. I am behind on laundry, dishes and vacuuming. I am behind on groceries, christmas shopping, christmas wrapping. I am behind on absolutely everything.
The only thing I can think of...actually, I'm not sure what I think of. I guess I just sit here feeling badly.
If there was one place I could be right now, it would be the Quinalt. Sitting out the back of my edge eating some razor clam chowder just watching the water and hearing the deafening roar of trillions of gallons of water hitting the earth at the same time. The waves are constant. They don't stop. They don't disappoint. They don't cheat. They don't hurt. They don't yell. They don't push. They don't demand. They just are. Peaceful, constant, everlasting. I love the ocean... I think I just figured out why.
And I can still catch up on that other stuff. All really is not lost.
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